Echoes of Darkness Pt 1

Part 1 - Denial set the tone for my transgressions . It all began on this day , the day she decided to help with what I’ve come to know as temporary heartbreak . She told me it was going to to be okay , but in that brief moment of reassurance I looked into her eyes , trying to find something i had lost ; ”comfort” but She however , was void of this fact. Days went by and within these days I took it upon myself to dedicate a specific period of my day to continually intoxicate myself with her presence as it provided me with the emotionally healing drug which I had found with her that day and like all drug dealers, She provided this bountifully . After a while, addiction became the new name for what I was doing . To those around us , it was condemned not only because of its dangers but for the important fact that presented itself as her lover . Of course I denied this fact . But unfortunately , they had planted the seed of question in my heart and like every other seed , it took its roots and grew into a tree . I found myself constantly being tormented with thoughts of whether or not I had feelings for this girl , my supposed helper , had I stupidly fallen in love with her ? .These were the questions that ransacked my mind , when suddenly , I was brought back to reality by the sound of her voice, asking me if I was alright . I looked at her , I looked into her eyes , and at that very moment , I felt it . The ultimate surge of a thousand memories , rushing in and playing themselves scene after scene before my very eyes and then I knew . Then I knew ,what I had stepped into and my feet sank , it sank and kept pulling me along with it ; and to my amusement , I did not resist . I had let myself fall into this endless abyss , that is called love .”I’m in love with you” , I said , and as she turned to reply …